Dax,

Well, I thought your hair, patchy facial hair, and “pasty white skin” were cute.  It was really cool to see what you look like.  

As for the “white wall of death”, I haven't experienced that.  When I first started doing altered states of consciousness work, I experienced what appears to be a white gauzy veil that separates the physical and spiritual worlds.  By that I mean, the ability to see beyond what out normal Human vision sees.  Once you step through/past this veil/wall, then you can see all manner of spirits/entities/etc.  

I wonder if you had placed yourself in a box so concretely that it prevented you from going through the veil?  Perhaps all you could do was to go to that place, but not past it.

My suggestion:  Next time, form neutral intent, and the intent to go past the “wall of death”.  Thinking of it as a “wall of death” puts you in fear mode and will prevent you from moving into higher altered states of consciousness.  If you are still having trouble doing this, go back to the audio on fear/paranoia do some work there.  See if you can open the box that contains the fear aspects and let it go.  You probably aren't even aware that you have a fear box relating to this.

Anyhoo…that is what I would do and see if it helps you any.

d