Alisun said:

Hi D,

 

since starting on my jounrney with you I have been allowing myself to be aware of, nurture a state of neutral intent.

 

I am coming to understand and respect the depth of meaning and what personal growth is needed to achieve it

 

What I am starting to experience is as I sense fear coming up, then come from a place of neutral intent, then just 'sit' with it I become very aware of how my body is reacting to fear. Then as the fear leaves me again I sense the release and peace I feel in my body.

 

I am learning that to trust and allow every experience without fear (or at least when it turns up allowing it to pass!) that I am receiving guidance, ideas that seem conceptually new to me. I feel comforted by this received knowledge.

 

Of late I have felt the presence of dog with me, a gentle female German pointer… never had a dog, get a sense I may enjoy such a companion on this earth walk!

 

Alisun

Alisun,

Very good work!

Yes, you do have Dog as a lifelong animal spirit.  She came immediately as I was reading your post, which means that she is indeed walking with you this life path.  Dog is a powerful animal spirit to have.  

Diana

Daximil said:

Well, here I thought I was close to overcoming my fear boxes when last night I looked over to my left and nearly panicked when I saw a face low to the ground looking back at me.  I had a good laugh at myself when I realized someone had left their notebook computer down there, and I was looking at my own face reflecting in the screen.  It still took me another five minutes for my heart rate to go back down.

 

Guess I need to take  a few more steps back on this. 

Dax,

Yes, do that.  The fear thing is, in my experience, the hardest one to conquer.  At least you know what it was…and that is a good thing.  Perhaps it happened to show you that you need to work on letting go of fear a bit more.

d

DanubePilot said:

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(2) Letting Go of Fear and Paranoia:

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Diana,

Is wanting to accomplish things in life an ego-driven box? When kids are taught that they should be everything they can be, is that teaching them to be competitive or is that good encouragement? Does the soul know what it came to here to learn from childhood or does it only find out through trial and error by old age? I've always struggled with the question of why I'm here, what is my life about. I was told many things that I'm a natural this or that, but no exploration led to anything. Someone told me once that if you believe that you are supposed to be a Ferrari when you're actually a skateboard, you feel like a failure. But if you know that you're a skateboard, your life is fulfilled. I don't know if this makes any sense. I've been trying to formulate this question for the last couple of days… Thanks for your help.

DP,

Remember that you are also here in a physical body that is mind/ego driven.  You have to have a certain amount of that in order to do what you need to do or want to do physically.

That said, if one is ego driven they will strive for fame, money, etc. above all the spiritual aspects of their life.  The lesson is to learn to walk in balance between the two.

Humans are taught at an early age that success if tied to physical achievement and that alone.  The importance of trusting one's intuition is given no merit, when in fact it is that which will together with the physical part bring you bliss.

Also, Humans are taught that failure to an awful thing.  Failure is not.  It is a different kind of lesson.  Perhaps one failed because it was not what they were supposed to do.  So-call “failure” can be used as a very effective guide to what one should be doing.  Failure is not bad, it simply means that you did not accomplish something you thought you should have accomplished.  The person should not have a feeling of being less worthy, less intelligent, etc. than if they had succeeded.  They are yet another form of balance.  No one succeeds at everything they try.  The trick is to not dwell in society's negative view of failure because it is wrong.

There is nothing wrong with being happy that you are a skateboard.

Your life path encompasses your whole life.  You aren't supposed to have all the answers in the middle of the walk.  It is fluid.  It changes.  What was important yesterday may not be important today.  That is where losing fear is important.  Dare to change you walk if you need to.  You will still have learned lessons from your “failures” and that is why you are here…to learn.

d

Goofy2 said:

G'day Diana

 

I have a huge problem, I love this life for all it stands for ego & all so really I don't have a problem at all because I have no real conflicts just human ones,  I appreciate what we are experiencing but not exactly humanly so if you get what I mean. Once your there you want to be here & once here you want to be there, appreciating both for what they are by accepting them for what they are is very rewarding however I do have a little way to go in appreciating the other none human side of me & incorporating this as well into this reality.

 

This is funny because I'm in physical pain all the time, have been since I was six but I still appreciate this life for what it is, I have more of a problem with my none human side strangely enough however once you understand it's not so strange after all for the main reason once there I want to be here as this reality has so much to offer. 

 

Love 

Mathew

Mathew,

I just found this post and a couple of other ones you posted (which I will answer also).  Thank goodness I get an email for each post.  

I, too, have been in pain for the vast majority of my life.  It makes our personal paths more difficult to navigate through.

It is easier to lose focus when you are doing spiritual work as the energy you are using there is held more softly than your mind/ego holds its energy.  This is one of the boxes you have to work on to make each side equal…and it does take work.  Even I have been waging a war on this box as my pain has been really severe…and it has finally begun to come back to balance.

Use what I wrote above and see if you can't begin to have your balance return.  Remember that it will take time and that Turtle won the race by being slow and steady.

,

diana